A new
pattern for me: jealousy
Jealousy isn’t something I am altogether
familiar with…well, yes and no. Yes I am familiar with the heart ache I feel
with jealousy, when someone I know has something I don’t and that I feel shitty
for not being at the same place, but No in the sense that it’s rare that I get
jealous. I must more often get that feeling just because I am judging myself: “I
should be more like ____, but I’m not, and I hate myself for it”
I just got jealous again. My friend who’s shown
me that she’s changed so much after taking a personal development class, I got
inspired to do the same. I too have gone through a lot of positive changes. Now
she’s totally changed careers and she’s starting her own business… and that’s
what set off that feeling of “I’m not good enough” followed by “and I am never
going to be.”
I took a moment to calm down and thought it
through. Emotions are useful: they tell us something and figuring out what they
are trying to tell us is Emotional Intelligence. This jealousy is telling me
that I would like to eventually own a business. It is also telling me that I
want to be excited about work, as she was.
And finally I can’t just push aside jealousy,
by putting it into a small box for a rainy day. No – feel it, and accept it. It’s
okay to be jealous. Now take action. You want to find career happiness, Karen? well
go and find it. There is no other way. I’m sure she has gone through jealousy
herself, and gone through a lot of negative emotions before finding something for
her. Also, I can’t expect to have the same pathway to happiness as her, as our
pasts are not at all the same, and our selves are two entirely different people.
(PS. Reading material: http://www.forbes.com/sites/work-in-progress/2012/08/01/the-real-reason-youre-jealous-of-your-friends-success/2/)
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